One year ago today I arrived in Guatemala.
june 22, 2010.
I planned on staying for a year.
This is what I wrote in my journal on that first day:
“I can’t believe I’m here- not for a few weeks or months, but for a year! It still hasn’t totally hit me. I have NO idea what this next year holds, but I have no doubt in my mind that this is where I’m supposed to be. I’ve been learning that maybe one of the reasons I’m here is to learn what it really means to be a person who can “let go” and “trust God” and not just say that, but actually live like that. It’s learning that I can’t have everything figured out. I can’t make things happen or work to control the situation. I’m learning that letting go means trusting the process and that some things in fact do work themselves out. I’m learning what it means to ask for help and be taken care of. And maybe most importantly, God, I’m learning that if I say, I believe in You and trust Your timing, then I should also be ok letting go of my need to know and have it figured out. I’m excited for what’s to come. Surprises. Hope. Learning and Letting Go.”
And here I am a year later.
Blown away by the Surprises that have come. Challenged by what it means to live by Hope. And continuing to learn about Letting go.
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• I have learned that living a good story sometimes mean leaving one thing to make room for something else. • I’ve learned that we need far less than most of us live with. • Walking is wonderful. • Believe it or not a dorm size fridge is more than sufficient. • I’ve learned to eat more locally and seasonally, not in some attempt to be organic and kind to local farms, but simply because that’s the only option. • I’ve learned to view water as a gift and hot water as a luxury. • Riding the bus is an excellent spot for people watching and praying. • My concept of time is greatly influenced by my culture and personality. • I am convinced that teacher meetings are long in any culture. • Learning and living within a second language is probabaly one of the hardest and most gratifying things I’ve ever done. • Letting Go means sometimes missing and longing for what was • I’ve learned that the world needs less people who talk about who God is, and more people who will show who He is. • Having unrealistic expectations often leads to disappointment • Trust by definition means you can’t control. • Never say Never. • Loving someone means you want their best • Living by faith means you may not be sure what is next. • And being able to admit that, is a very good place to be. •
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Where were you a year ago today? And what have you learned?